Does the weather have multiple personalities or is it just me? A sunny day that suddenly becomes dark and rainy can seem to mirror my own internal melee. I have to wonder if anything is really happening or is it all in my mind.
There are times that I have to remind myself that nothing is happening to me directly and that I should probably just calm down. But in these usual times, that can bring about a separate, jarring reality that maybe nothing is happening and the mechanics from one day don’t only “seem” eerily similar to the day before, they are actually the same day repeating itself! If I’m being truthful, this really isn’t very different to my life before Covid.
The weather in Port Townsend can change many times over the course of a day. I spend most of the day outside, so, all of these little changes can feel like a thickening plot, a story unfolding around me. Living on a peninsula on a peninsula, I frequently have the sensation that whole weather systems are rushing over me while on the way to more substantial ground.